those days

Sometimes I have those actions

I do things without even considering the consequences

And I love it

I love moments where I do whatever I want to do

With whoever I want to do it whit

My only problem are my thoughts

They won’t let go of reality when I do something what isn’t totally right

My thoughts bring back memories

Memories of the past or dreams of the future

And because I don’t think about the consequences

It hits me pretty hard when they get me

When I wake up and think of what I did

What I’ve lost

And what I might not should have done

I love my actions at the moment

En sometimes even the day after

But not always

Not at all

But I’m glad I’ve had my actions

I’m glad I make some mistakes

And I have days like this where I could kill myself for my own stupid actions

But I don’t regret it

Not at all