The perfect words

The perfect words never crossed my mind

'Cause there was nothing in there but you

With those words I could have changed everything

I could have told you what you mean to me

We wouldn’t be walking circles around each other

We could be walking together

Holding hands

And just watching where the path would take us

Maybe there will be some hills we have to climb

Or some see’s we have to go through

Maybe we would lose our way

But we would  find it together in the end

There’s only one problem

I don’t have the perfect words

interpretations

I’ve once heard the lyric:  “you’ve got me screaming insecure’

I loved the band but that doesn’t matter right now

I could understand how that must feel

I was on highschool and I was getting to know myself a little bit more

And this search for myself had some up’s and some downs

And that made me really insecure

I always felt like there was nothing I could do

I always seem to mess up big time

I could study as hard as I could

And still get bad grades

I always tried to be the best in everything

And to be honest

I wasn’t good at anything

But hey I found myself

And I’m still figuring myself out a little bit more everyday

But at that moment I think I was the most insecure girl at school

But listening to that same song again I hear the lyrics differently

Sure I still want to be the best and change the world

And make everything better

But now I know I probably won’t

So that doesn’t make me insecure anymore

But knowing that you are out there

Doing your own thing

Probably dating some other girls

Having fun with your friends

Or thinking about me

Telling me sweet things

That’s what makes me insecure

So now I know the feeling

Maybe even more than I did a few years ago.

 

that one life changing kiss

I love stories with a happy end

Oke, to be honest..

Sometimes it makes me sake all those loving couples who are pretending to have the best days of their lives

But what if they really do?

What if you kiss someone and you know that that person is the one you wanna spent the rest of your life with.

It’s a huge step you know..

And I can’t imagine ever being there

But I love to watch people who just felt in love

That first kiss

The holding hands while you’re walking through the most beautiful places

The blushing

The giggling

It’s just so adorable to see

But what if one kiss can change the rest of your life

Isn’t that a bit scary?

It probably is but you just have to deal with it..

I don’t believe or kiss changed the rest of our lives

But maybe just a little

There’s only one thing I know for sure..

And that’s that I really, really, really like to see you soon <3.

those days

Sometimes I have those actions

I do things without even considering the consequences

And I love it

I love moments where I do whatever I want to do

With whoever I want to do it whit

My only problem are my thoughts

They won’t let go of reality when I do something what isn’t totally right

My thoughts bring back memories

Memories of the past or dreams of the future

And because I don’t think about the consequences

It hits me pretty hard when they get me

When I wake up and think of what I did

What I’ve lost

And what I might not should have done

I love my actions at the moment

En sometimes even the day after

But not always

Not at all

But I’m glad I’ve had my actions

I’m glad I make some mistakes

And I have days like this where I could kill myself for my own stupid actions

But I don’t regret it

Not at all

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Ik voel me nu precies zoals jij me ooit noemde.

2010 a weird year

You might think I’m losing my way

Or I’m falling apart soon

But none of that is going to happen

It’s just a phase I have to go trough

Nothing special

In a year or so we will be laughing about last year

All the boys who gone by

All the tears that I’ve cried

All the drama in my life

It’s just the way it sometimes has to be

And I will be the first one to admit

That I’ve been acting really stupid

I’ve had my up’s and down

I’ve been head over heels

And heels over head

I broke friendships

And made others much stronger

I’ve finished my first year at school

without passing everything

I started blowing

I quit smoking

I’ve lost my way

But I found a new one

Things happen

Things change

But something will always be the same

a new chance

You know I haven’t felt this way for a long long time.

And I didn’t think I would feel like this ever again

After all the mistakes I’ve made in the last year it feels unbelievable

Just to meet a guy like you

I don’t deserve this

I don’t deserve anyone who cares for me the way you do

It wouldn’t be a big surprise if this was all a lie

And I couldn’t even blame you if it was

We didn’t had the best start ever

So we probably won’t have the best ending either

But I hope with all my heart that this won’t  ever end

Cause it feels so great

Maybe I’m making the biggest mistake ever by choosing you

If I can say it’s a choice..

But it just feels so good

And I won’t be making the same mistakes I did before

And I will be there for you whenever you need me

Just give it a chance.