Empty

The smell of cigarettes in this clean room making a perfect composition

The pictures reminding that there once was love and happiness in this cold and empty place.

There are letters on the ground, ripped apart next to the empty wine bottle

Every sentence was about you, every word written in my mind a thousand times before

The ink is dripping of the paper like the rain tapping on the window

This is not a home anymore

All that’s left are memories that keep turning back to you. It’s what’s keeping me standing inside these four walls

Knowing there once was love

I know what you told me, I know that it’s all over and I know I can’t keep texting

You’re gone

Time to leave this house, the walls keep crying and it’s keeping me awake.

The sound of emptiness that keeps my heart beating

Won’t let me go as fast as you did

Holding on to broken pieces won’t keep me alive.

 

I like pretending

I like to pretend everything stays the same. I haven't lost you, I haven't lost us, it's just a fase you have to get through.  It's not like our love is gone, it's just temporary. She might be sleeping with you, but that's probably nothing like we've had. It's not that I can't sleep at night cause I'm jealous,  I just like to stay awake all night and imagine how you're holding her, how your lips touch her's and how you whisper in her ear. I like that a lot, it makes me look like a zombie for a few months but haven't you noticed how trendy that is?
I like seeing you, when you're smiling and feeling good. I never know the reel reason but it suits you that smile. I'm not that familiar with that look but I like it. Around me you like to be moody, yelling, throwing cellphones, in a weird way I like that. It makes you manly and it makes me appreciate the good times. I've always been a first class bitch or how I like to say 'incontent' somehow I can't see what's in front of me and appreciate what I have. You changed that in me. You're the difference I needed to make.

I like pretending.